I wanted to thank everyone for their supportive comments to my last post. Talking about infertility is in no way an easy thing to do, but I'm finding more and more people who are having the same problems that Brian and I are having, and it does WONDERS to know that we're not alone.
Not that it gets us any closer to a bun in the oven, but hey, misery loves company, right?
I also wanted to point out that, while I am indeed fairly heartbroken that the road to pregnancy is looking less like route 66 and more like the NJ turnpike in rush hour, with landmines, the no-baby situation is a small cloud in the otherwise brilliant sky that is my life right now. I can honestly say that my life is good. Very good. My freelance writing has been wildly successful, I'm happily enmeshed once again in the world of horses, Brian is kicking ass and taking names in his job, and even Milo is starting to come around (knock on wood).
Keeping perspective is a difficult things for us humans to do. It always seems like, no matter how good things are, we always focus on the few things that are causing us to be dissatisfied. Even rich people, who shouldn't have a care in the world on account of the fact that they will never, ever have to worry about food, shelter, clothing, always seem to be unhappy. It's like our species is designed to manage a life that is equal parts good and bad, and when there's nothing to be upset about, we'll blow a hangnail out of proportion until it blots out half the sky.
Or something like that.
My point?
Is that despite the fact that we're having fertility issues, I can honestly say that my life is the best it's ever been.
...I just need to keep reminding myself of this when my little problems start blocking out the sun :-)
4 comments:
Everything happens in it's own time Lily. Which is frustrating as hell to us control freaks that want everything in OUR time. :D
Hang in there.....
I'm glad Milo has set the bar so low that you're thinking he's one of life's treasures. All he has to do is not eat a piece of furniture or a window and you think he's good. LOL That's looking at the bright side. That's why I love you!
I just got caught up on your latest posts. My ex wife and I were married for 8 years, no bambino either. It was very frustrating hearing other people asking the same thing over and over again, why no baby, when is your turn, this and that. Unfortunately the no baby situation was also part of the demise of our marriage. : (
Keep up the optimism my dear. You indeed sound happy and that is something no one will take away from you.
We always want what we can't have - it's human nature I think. Your babies will come and it will be all the more sweeter and worth the wait. Keep your faith and gratitude strong and next thing we know, you'll have triplets...
:)
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